A Request

Help me remember how and why

I became who I am before I got here

Help me know that it is now time

To move on, without too much fear

Assist me in understanding myself

And how I became who I have become

Allow me to surrender my childish ways so

That I continue to be reborn into my new life here

Thank you, thank you, thank you

Oh, Sacred Spirits

Glory, Glory

When I sit upon the hill gazing at the stars and the moon

Know that I am putting my mind aside for awhile

I am opening up to the possibility of you

And my growing trust in you and your ways

“Be not afraid,” I hear from you over and over again

“I am always with you, Turn around, see me, feel me, touch me”

Golden, warm honey pours down all over me 

My heart and body are soothed and calmed by your presence

“Grace, Grace, Grace, Grace,” the Sacred Spirits sing within me

“May you be blessed and forgiven for having feelings of guilt”

“All humans make mistakes and act strangely sometimes

 But,  you are as innocent as a child

You learned to survive in ways that you needed to then

You can look back and feel no need to continue to use those same

Techniques and patterns, because you no longer have need of them”

I sit, partly puzzled and partly ecstatic at such an idea of no longer

Feeling guilty about the past knowing  I am just a human 

Who now has a chance at a new life

Glory, Glory 

Whining

 Mamma Earth, Mother Nature, all planetary beings and earth beings

I have wished you no harm, but I have inflicted damage upon you without intention or knowledge

At first, and then I continued to smatter destruction all around you and on you

In denial and absurdity, though I partially knew what I was doing

How do I change my being a human being cruel to you, Oh, Mamma

Tell me how to change so that we can both thrive and become one

I hear from Mamma, “We are one, no need to become. I am you

And you are me, and what you do to me, you do to yourself”

“Then change my ways for me!” I moan whining and sorrowful

“Not my job,” she answers, and I see a dim light beginning to shine brightly

I know that in order to bless my Mamma, I need to also receive her blessings

I know that I cannot live perfectly but I strive to be kind and compassionate

“Wonder when compassion doesn’t come easily or naturally?“ she whispers

“Probably when you are fearful and confused, and still, you can change yourself”

I ponder, realizing that my prayer is being answered but not in the ways I wanted

I wanted you to forgive me and bless me, Mamma, so I can go forth and

Treat you and every living being, every rock, and mineral with care

Like the care that you give me, let me be like you. “OK,” Mamma answered

Sledgehammer Grace

The Great Mysterious Muse hit me the other day with a sledgehammer

(Seems harsh but sometimes, that is what it takes...)

She said that I needed to share more, to experience more, to express more

So, I did. Then, she asked me to do more for others, and I thought she was a little

Pushy, and that I grew up pressuring myself to do more for others all of my life

So, I clenched my teeth (my hands and feet) and stood up to her and told her

That I was tired of doing for others, been doing it all my life, tired and drained now

And, she responded that perhaps all that I did for others was a result of my belief

That I was not good enough, that I was unloveable and doing for others helped me

Feel better. Couldn’t argue with that. She told me that this time and from now on

Doing for others means, doing for myself initially, that is the correct order

And once I do for myself, what I give to and share with others will be so much 

More loving and sweet and kind, and that only when I learn to be gentle with myself

Can I be gentle with those others out there who also need human love and care

I couldn’t argue with that, so I accepted her request and life has now transformed

Glistening Grace

You, the unnamed force that travels with us

And through us

Guiding us and caring for us

We thank you for your gifts

Your love, your strength, and 

Your compassion as we live as 

Humans during this lifetime

How you shine!

How we feel when we 

Know you

Day by day

Off and on

Sometimes losing you

And sometimes finding you

Thank you, thank you, thank you

Divine Disruption

 'Kali Ma, Green Tara, White Buffalo Calf Woman

Mary Magdalene, and all other goddesses

Open our hearts so that we can receive the healings you offer us

Help us disconnect from our human pasts so that we can revel in

The present, and become authentic in our everyday lives

Your divine disruptions create challenges for us all

And sometimes we are blind to the lessons available to us

Or to the circumstances that arise especially when ghastly

Even when the walls seem to be crumbling

Please clear our eyes so that we may see through and fully

As we forgive ourselves and all others

We outgrow our sufferings

Recalibrating spiritually and mystically

Knowing little about the pathways before us

Guided by your hands of strength and truth

Bless us in our human forms so that we may create

Better vessels for these enormous souls we house

Today and every day, we give thanks'

In Your Mercy

'Gaia, Sophia, and all the stars and moons

Please be with us as we venture forward

Bring us wild peace as we juggle

Our worldly concerns with your divine bounty

You abundant grace and your love

Fill us with your mercy and wisdom so that we can

Learn to decrease our impulses to judge, arising

From our fear and anger toward others unlike ourselves

We know that we are mostly frightened of

Differentness and sometimes seek to destroy it

Let us become more compassionate, loving beings

Embracing those whom we know and even

Those we may not know so well

Help us have the courage and power to end

All wars and violent outbursts that reflect our

Darkest shadows and traumas

Inflicting upon others what has happened to us

Bring us beauty, rain, storms, and all the fullness of

This human life, assisting us in becoming better stewards

Of Mother Nature, our planet, our people and

All of the beings who live upon it or inside it

In your mercy'

Through the Dark Glass

We come to this earth as little bodies

Embodying Big Spirit and our souls 

We come to grow and become 

Problem solvers and figure out how

This human world works

We also come to heal any tiny or

Monstrous traumas, abuse or neglect

Inflicted upon us or our ancestors 

By this world

By circumstances and by other humans

Who may be trying to do their best themselves

Once we begin to heal, then we see

Through the dark glass more clearly

We begin to learn how to receive as

Well as to give to others

We delight in our abundance and love

Once we are nourished we can

Give even more to the world

And to each other

And to ourselves

Loving all that is

In Grace”

Change

We can almost not believe our luck

In living on this planet at this time

A time of great chaos and concern

Along with a great time of change

A time of transformation from this sweet ole world

To a New World full of possibilities and hope

Many feel (and are) tormented by the outer edges and 

Even the mainstream of human behaviors

Our leaders and so many others

Acting so greedy, corrupt with lies

Dripping off their tongues with ease and 

Perhaps even unconsciousness about what 

They are doing to so many oppressed peoples

To so many blessed peoples and to

Themselves and to our beautiful planet

Hard to trust in anything or anyone with

All that going on so vividly, daily, moment by moment

On our phones, on the news, on TV and 

Reflected in every part of our cultures

What to do? many wonder

I offer what I have learned lately

More intimately than ever before

Take some time, slow down 

From your current rat race

Stop and keep still long enough

To witness your life with a bird’s eye view 

Your human history, your genetic and 

Ancestral history, and realize perhaps for 

The first time that you are an innocent being

Who has struggled with human issues all of your life

(As is normal for humans to do)

And now, perhaps it is time to focus internally 

Letting go of the past and surrendering to present life

While also allowing spirits, guides, and community

(Human and other)

To assist you and bring your more peace and joy

Than you have ever had a chance to know

Although this process can take years of noticing

Developing and growing through transformative

Meditative and guided experiences

What else is more important

Than re-discovering your Soul and its blueprint

Increasing your ability to love and be loved 

While you still put food on the table at night

And wander about your days with more ease and 

Security, comfort and contentment

Than ever before?

I currently live in this process and

I hope you can, too

Dream to Wake

'As Nature, as part of this amazing Universe

And set of galaxies throughout the cosmos

We seek blessings and healings for our human

Bodies, for physical health and strength, for

Emotional, spiritual and mental health and 

Goodness for our communities

And for the reduction of whatever pains us

While living in this world

Knowing that pain may be an instructive

Message to us

As can any particular thing that happens to us

In this life

Symbols abound all around us

We interact with all the elements

Every time we breathe

Every time we step outdoors

Every time we sleep to dream

Dream to wake

Our lives are filled with so many opportunities

To explore, to adventure, to bask in the light

Of the sun, the moon, and the stars

Even in the absolute darkness

We rest and relax soaking up the energies

All around us

Absorbing some and releasing some others

Thank you, thank you, thank you'

Pausing

Pausing

To make space

To listen

To feel

To heal

Pausing

To pray

To explore

To adventure

Into the unknown

Pausing to breathe deeply

Pausing for you

Pausing for me

Pausing just because

As we rotate on this earth

Spinning around the sun

Pausing to be

Becoming

'Bless the river that runs through us

Connecting us internally, organ by organ

Chakra by chakra, muscle to bone

All of our parts integrating

Supporting us within and

Grounding us to Mother Earth, Gaia

This river carries us down toward the

Ocean of delight and danger

A place of great depths

Mother Ocean

Full of wisdom and serenity

Storms, winds, and waves

A channel carrying us

Out past the riptides toward the

Deep expansiveness, breadth

The wideness of her Body

Bless us as we flow toward her

Bless us as we enter her cell by cell

Becoming one with All'

On Grace

'As the seagull soars

So does my heart

When the seagull laughs

Its raucous squeal

My spirit lifts up 

And flies along

With the air currents

The breezes and winds

That vibrate and rotate

Holding us up, supporting us

As we climb

Higher and higher up into

The expansive light of the Divine

Where we connect and

Remain connected as we

Float back down into

Our human bodies

Full of life and love'

My Turn

My father gave me music and wisdom

My mother gave me grace and hope

Both shared their love with me and many others

In almost every piece of music I hear

I begin crying when the saxophone begins

Playing wailing and jazzy tunes

The blues, soul music

My father played woodwinds

Especially the sax

Without words, my parents showed me 

How to bring more joy, justice and peace

To a chaotic and sometimes scary world 

Sharing sounds, musical notes

Vibrations, frequencies and touch

Dance and beauty

The sacred, and 

Love to all

My turn

A Splash of Paints

Channeling energy

Every moment of every day

Breathing in and out

Absorbing and reflecting

Opening up the spinal column

Letting the bright white light

Flow in through our heads and 

Up through our feet

The darkness of the soil

Meets bright white light

Becoming an amazing color of 

Magenta

A divine trick illustrating how

Mixing colors and skins can

Transform into beautiful shades

Stirring together values and beliefs

One and one does not equal

Two but becomes an abundance of

Progeny being born

Producing wild and incredible

Colors that clash and merge

Spinning and splashing

Together

Look at all of the colors of

The wheel, all the strands

The textures, depths and

Tones as they flow down

Into and all around

Our bodies, minds and hearts

Mixing with our own blood

Our mucus, muscles, bones

And all organs immersed in liquid

Fluids, giving us shape and form

Settling down and relaxing

Into gravity and also surging out 

Into space as we float above and

Beyond our Selves

Turning our heads back to

Witness the stream of 

Colors in our wake

Like the tail of a comet

We venture forth, opening

To the new

Then sailing down 

In a focused plunge to

Dive into Water and

Into the crust of Mother Earth

To see how we blend

How we are held

How we hold others

A splash of paints

All belonging

Together

Savage Divinity

Roaring

Awakening

Glowing

Leading

Gathering

Sharing

Blessing

Feeling the burn

Of suffering taking place

The divine spark  

Once again ignites

Through a new ritual

Letting go of control

Letting go of sorrow

And despair

Letting go of thoughts

Mind, ego, achievement

Releasing all rationality 

To the winds of change

The storm causes

Disaster

Clears the path

For the opening of hearts

More Love than was ever

Experienced before

Surrendering all thoughts

Of attachments and binding

Knotty, tangled relationships

Knowing 

We do not own or possess

Any thing at all

We are given gifts

We receive blessings

No more victimization

No more perpetration

No more blame and shame

No more heavily laden guilt

To bend our shoulders

And weigh us down

With the burdens of 

This world

Instead, we rejoice as we

Impale ourselves

On the spear of

Bright white light

Wiping out all stains

All beliefs of sin

And disgust

Judgment and pride

Empty at last

While never feeling

Alone again

Wild Peace

Shimmering

Rippling

Vibrating

No you or me

No separation 

Between each other

And the Divine

This is Wild Peace

Peace which needs no understanding

Wildness beyond measure

Allowing the spirit of Grace

To move within, outside,

And all around us

The rhythm of Wild Peace

Is the bass line

The heartbeat inside us

And throughout the universe

Strumming strongly yet gently

Always present underneath

All other sacrificial sounds

While chaos enacts its dynamics

Disturbing our resilient calm

We witness, we watch our world

We may even participate

By dipping our toes

Into the playground of humanity

And then, diving in and throughout

Past humanity’s edge

Further into the deep, hallowed

Waters of our souls and into

Sacred Space and Time

Bubbling all around us

We breathe, we race 

To be at one with

To be inside the circle

Rainbows of light

Expanding from the cosmos

All the way down 

Into our moon tides

Into our wiggling toes

We reach out

Drawing down the bright white deep

Receiving these gifts

That set us on fire

We explode into

Stardust once again

Shedding our skins

Entering the New World

In different forms and shapes 

Energies being born

Transformed

Awakened

Now

I see you

Do you see me?

Floating around

Ecstatically?

Healy: Healing with Frequency Vibration

As we suffer and perhaps as we age, we seek to find any kind of method, medicine, or practice that may help us find relief from suffering along with encouraging excellent health and well-being. We have read self help books, we have attended some psychotherapy sessions, we may have also tried meditation or medication. But, nothing so far has seemed to offer us a scientific and magical way to transform our bodies and lives consistently.

After psychotropic medications started years ago, many people have benefited because these medications can change brain chemicals in such a way as to relieve some distress, decrease anxiety, and improve people’s moods. But, these types of prescribed medicines don’t help all of the people all of the time, and some medicines have so many side effects, that they create new problems.

We also hoped that psychedelics and ketamine would provide answers to some of our distress, and research has proven that some psychedelics do help many people: offering relief from long term depression along with assisting people who have PTSD, addictions, and other compulsive behaviors. Some people also benefit spiritually with psychedelics if the proper preparation, guidance, setting, and integration are parts of their practices. These are powerful medicines and not everyone can take them due to some medical or psychiatric issues. Also, psychedelics are mostly illegal in the U.S. which may change in time.

Now, along comes another amazing methodology for healing: the Healy device, and the Healy community. The device was founded by a physicist and an investor who came together to do research, explore, and create a marvelous technological tool that works along with our bodies to heal themselves. What an amazing, tiny machine! I, myself, have discontinued 3 long term medications because I don’t need them anymore since I began using Healy. My life has expanded and improved tremendously!

There is much history in the past century or so about using frequencies to heal all sorts of health problems, and physicians have used vibrational tools for many types of medical services. Now, the founders of Healy have created a device that sends micro-currents into our bodies, offering healing at the cellular level to assist our bodies in dealing with so many sorts of conditions and pains. The Healy device contains hundreds of programs that address everything from physical, emotional, and spiritual distress to helping skin, feet, circulation, joints, and all sorts of other issues.

A creatively fit coach, mentor and friend first told me about Healy. I can be skeptical about some forms of healing that I don’t understand, but this technique and technology make so much sense. I won’t describe here all the scientific details about how this device works, but you can find lots of data by googling, “Healy,” and watching videos, reading, and listening to speakers talk about the science.

What I want to share is that this amazing little device works! Like supersonic meditation, the Healy offers a regular routine of connecting 2 electrodes to our wrists (although some types of Healy devices work without electrodes), which send out micro-currents that assist us in healing ourselves. Think about how music can soothe us, excite us, and create all sorts of moods and feelings. So, too, with Healy and frequencies. We set intentions and we allow Healy to do its job, sending these frequencies and raising our vibrations. Healy founders and users all hope that Healy can change our world, one person at a time, and I believe that this transformation has already begun.

Can you imagine a world where many people connect to a powerful source of healing routinely, a practice without strenuous effort, one that offers support, compassion and waves of wellness traveling throughout our bodies, minds, hearts, and spirits? We can be working, exercising, or doing anything while wearing the Healy device briefly each day.

This is the future of medicine, the way of self help. This is the path of the shaman, the mystic, and those who believe intuitively that we can bring heaven to earth by healing ourselves. Why? Because our healing becomes as source of light, love, and compassion that we share with everyone we meet. We want to shout out the news that suffering can be diminished and that joy is possible for everyone.

Pie in the sky? Perhaps so. Why not give Healy a try after you do some research? Come and enter into a global community, a healing circle that offers love and support to each and every member. Feel free to contact me for more information and for a referral link to enter into this new world: BarbaraGrace.2023@gmail.com

Enchant Me!

Enchanted, I wander through misty meadows

Gazing at trees, grasses, and flowers

Wondering

How this magical place became what it is today

Who were the artists, the hands that carved the rocks

Who scooped out the seas

Who planted the first seeds

And who oversees Gaia now?

A Big Bang

A quantum leap

A god or goddess

Bursting stars

Magnetized dust

Or, all of the above and more?

The Enchantress narrows her focus

Takes out an arrow, placing it in her bow

Stabbing me with a gut wrenching blow

Knocking the breath out of me

I fall down, grabbing my solar plexus

She has hunted me

Time after time

Racing to catch up to my

Speed, my moving with rapid

Electrical impulses

Not just running away necessarily

But always running fast

Stop! She bellows

(I am punched)

If you won’t slow down

Just stop and lie here still

(She puts her massive foot on my belly)

I have you now

(wickedly laughing)

I keep giving you chance

After chance to pull together

To stabilize and listen carefully

Although you are clever and cunning

And slide so swiftly in and out of reality

But, I can still catch you, she blurts

I am proud of myself but also

Fearful about her great power

I cower under that large

Heavy foot

OK, I give, I say

At that point, she disappears

Flowing toward the mountains

Creating no havoc, just floating along

Beckoning me to follow

Seduced, I stand, I jump up into the air

Warm breezes carry me to

A lofty cliff where she awaits

Planning to create a waterfall

She whispers, Dive down with me

The water will come

You have to trust me

Sophia Gaia proclaims

I will do you no harm

We sail out into the air

I transform into a alligator

She becomes a snake

We fall down (or glide)

Fast toward the earth, but

Before we crash

Into ground, waters gush

Behind us and carry us

Swiftly above the

Stones that would have

Smashed us up badly

What now?

Do you trust me now?

Sophia Gaia asks, proudly

Can you turn water into wine? I mutter

I just did, you silly, she responds

As I turn toward her this time

I hear thunder

I see lightning

Have I displeased her or

Is she just done with me?

I slowly transform back to the person

I am, the soul I have always been

Life after life

Death after death

Feeling a little lighter

A little stronger

Certainly more courageous

I lapse into a silent walk

Slower and more reflective somehow

Moving toward my next encounter with

The Enchantress

Cultivating Kundalini

Flaming inside my lower back
Sacred root chakra
Tossing my body around
Like a toy shaken by a dog
Burning my chest and lungs
Burning through and through
Cauterizing every piece
Of my broken heart.
I am restored
Miraculously reborn
Without scar tissue

It started with the Rapture
When my old life ended
And my new life began

Kundalini, a powerful
Coiled snake seductress
Sprang to life, shockingly
Surprisingly
Blasted through my pelvic area
With such sanctimonious sensations
Ecstatic pleasure and pain
Bursting hot energy
Like boiling lava, or revving up
Like a bull pawing the ground
Racing to stab the matador
With sharpened horn

Not so silently or serenely do these
Clotted roadblocks clear away
Rotor rootered throughout
Cleansed for the first time
Perhaps ever
Breathing out from my
Open mouth
Leaking out some of
The intensity so as not
To blow out the torch
Of my life in one fatal whoosh.

Divination afoot

The Breath of Life
Breathes for me
Begs me to open up
Become more alive
Than ever before

The entire channel shatters
As the sneaky snake
Smashes through every membrane
Muscle, bone and organ
That stands in Her way

The gush opens up and
I am for the very first time
Ever
An emptied, flowing channel
Unencumbered by human
Guts or goo, fully open

To Divine Magic

Pierced sighing, crying
Laughing at the absurdity
Of all of my former worries
All those attachments to
My body, my ego
Heaving, letting go
Finally

Surrendering

Released into the
Blackness, untethered from
All I once knew and thought
Was real
Floating unencumbered
Comforted, blessed
Only slight fear but real enough

Will I let go of all human
Connection one day

Die

Lose all I used to know?

Yes, but, I will also remember and
Know more than ever before

We will dance together
In some space or time or
Cloud, in light or darkness
However it looks

All together, One